A Day in the Life - Sleepless Nights

History will always know the great exploits and achievements of leaders. It is rare for people to truly understand and comprehend the burdens that these people bear. The life of an entrepreneur is not for everyone, with the potential for freedom, also comes with the fear of insecurity. That there are no guarantees, and nothing is certain. What if you fail, or what if it doesn't work out? If things go bad, where will you be tomorrow, what will you do tomorrow?

Having gone through many academic and social challenges, I always thought that I was mentally invincible. That nothing can phase me. Even during year 12 examinations, things didn't worry me. It wasn't until the weeks before Gamer's Life Convention 2012, that I started becoming sleepless. Each night, the thoughts of what could go wrong and what needs to be done flow through my mind.

Recently, these sleepless nights started again. I am uncertain what the future holds, I don't know what I need to do, neither do I know what will I do if I fail. I guess this is one of the mental costs for freedom. I guess this is my body telling me that what I'm doing is now serious. That there is no looking back, that if I continue there is no return and that the only way I can get over this is to force myself through this next challenge and become comfortable with it.

Many of my recent posts have been about lessons and thoughts of my journey. But today's post take a more personal note. Challenges lie ahead and I will conquer them.